I have been feeling uninspired and far from God lately. Blah. Not my favorite time.  Whatever the cause, I really feel like disconnecting from everything, but that is not the solution.  When I was a newer Christian this type of feeling would make me doubt I believed or that any of my faith was real. Now I now that after almost 11 years of walking with God I know that sometimes this  happens.  And since I feel unable to really even express myself I will let David do it for me:

How long,O LORD? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me? Look on me and answer, O LORD my God. Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;  my enemy will say, “I have overcome him,” and my foes will rejoice when I fall. But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation.  I will sing to the LORD, for he has been good to me. Psalm 13

I have learned that while it can make life exciting to be an emotional person it can also make life scary. That is when I have to stand firm on the promises of God and on the finished work of Jesus. I will take David’s advice and “trust in his unfailing love” and not my failing love. I will rejoice in my salvation and wait for the feelings to come back.  Some of Psalm 139:

Where shall I go from your Spirit?
Or where shall I flee from your presence?
 If I ascend to heaven, you are there!
If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!
 If I take the wings of the morning
and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
 even there your hand shall lead me,
and your right hand shall hold me.
 If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me,
and the light about me be night,”
 even the darkness is not dark to you;
the night is bright as the day,
for darkness is as light with you.

Search me, O God, and know my heart!
Try me and know my thoughts!
And see if there be any grievous way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting!  

And listen to a Keith Green song:  My Eyes Are Dry


One response »

  1. Thanks for your honest thoughts! The dry times really test our faith. You will and are shining like gold my frined/daughter. Listening to Keith Green is a breath of heaven. Thanks.

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